Sandralee's Adventures in San Antonio, Day SIX!

My sister Monica woke me up today to let me know a non-profit Christian organization was looking for Summer help, working with children. There was a possibility of it becoming permanent work. My heart leapt in joy! I have always dreamed of working for a non profit Christiam organization, ESPECIALLY with children. I pray to God that the door opens WIDE if it's His will! If not, He will prepare a path to where I should be! I truly believe that! I met up with Janie and Danette from the Rio Grande Valley. They went to High School with me and are now living here in San Antonio. I hadn't seen them since High School but we recently started keeping in touch thru Facebook. My Jenn came with the other Jen, who is now my new friend and D joined us also. Janie brought her cutie patootie son, Zac who was a very good boy and was kept occupied with some technical gadget or another! ;) We had a pleasant dinner at my favorite Chacho's on Perrin Beitel and caught up on where everyone from high school was. I had a couple of frozen drinks. Just so that people know (not that I need to explain myself), I am a SOCIAL drinker! I do not go around drinking day in and day out! At times, I can go for months without drinking! As long as I am not creating a spectacle of myself and getting 'stinking drunk' then I see nothing wrong with having a few drinks every now and then! ANYWAYS, now that that is said and done.... I truly enjoyed myself with my friends. Chacho's is a GREAT place to hang out and have fun! I even took pictures of the 'balloon guys'! I missed seeing Richard the Artist who does face painting on the weekends. He is the one who painted the butterfly fairy on my face for 'writing and research' purposes as I explained to him! ;) He was so sweet that time! He was like, 'You go girl! Whatever you want!' He did a GREAT job! ;) Of course we had to take pictures! That's why some of you have dubbed me, 'Ms Paparrazi!' ;)If the door is opened for me to move back to San Antonio in the near future, Danette and Janie will be visited very often! ;) Some of us hung around and watched the Karaoke singers. Some people have a REAL talent and SOME people need to KEEP their day job! ;) The 'Cha Cha Slide' was going on as I snapped some pictures of the crowd. This was an excellent day! I missed seeing Santiago tonight as he had to work! He is another HHS alumni of the class of 1990. All in all, my sixth day in San Antonio was FANTABULOUS and Cinderella was home by midnight on a week night! ;)

Sandralee's Adventures in San Antonio, Day FIVE!

Today has been a quiet day. Spent time 'assisting' my Jenn with her daycare. I say 'assisting' because she has everything organized and doesn't need my help! SO I do what she asks me to! ;)Some of these children, I have known since they were in diapers! For a woman who has no children, staying in an in-home Daycare is an ADVENTURE! There are wonderful kids, each showing their own little personality! Most of the parents have met me before and are used to me visiting frequently! I love seeing them play and listen to them talking to each other. It's always nice to 'hang out' with the kids and the ones that have known me for some time run up to me and give me a big hug and then run off to play. It's been a year since I've seen P and A, they are sooo big and I believe they will start school this coming year! In just a little bit, we are going to Espen and Ethan's baseball practice and probably hit up Chick-Fil-A for dinner as kids eat free today! The owner's mother works at Chick-Fil-A as a hostess and she is so wonderful! I LOVE that they play Christian music and Mama Chick-Fil-A takes the time to talk to us and make us laugh! One time she told us her son had bought her what I call 'Space Shoes'!! They are the new tennis shoes that help support your back and etc. She looks so 'hip' in those shoes! One by one, the kids are now being picked up by their parents and yet another day will come to a close! Will post about my evening soon! We headed to the ball park for the boys baseball practice. Espen was up first and he did a great job! We had Carly, the Rottweiler pup out playing on the grass. The coach was yelling out everyone's name as they came up to bat when I heard the name, 'Josiah.' My heart skipped about a dozen beats and my gasp of surprise seemed to be loud enough for the world to hear. At that exact moment, my eyes filled up with tears, but I remained strong and didn't let the tears spill over. Little moments like that make the grief feel insurmountable, yet I know it is not.We moved over to Ethan's practice as Espen continued to practice on his own. After practice, we headed to my favorite Chick-Fil-A near the Ingram Park Mall. The staff is wonderful and the family got their regular VIP welcome. Being at that particular Chick-Fil-A brought some bittersweet memories. I had met up with Josiah's father there one night.I felt a little nostalgic after hearing Josiah's name at the ball park and remembering meeting his daddy at that exact same Chick-Fil-A for dinner one night. I miss my baby, but the healing process is in place. The hurt will probably never go away, but each day I am stronger and I know Josiah's memory will never be forgotten. I love you son! On a lighter note, I met a friend of Jr's (Jenn's husband) tonight. His name is Chris and I told him he would be mentioned in my blog! I told him he would be referred to as 'Playa' Playa'!!!' :) He mentioned all the women of San Antonio already knew that but not to let all of the Valley women know just yet! Speaking of Playa's... I let 'Big Daddy P' know he had also made my blog today when he picked up his son and he just LAUGHED!!! Running the Valley, lol! ;) From San Antonio? Ha!!! ;)You're too funny, Percy! ;)Some of the employees at Chick Fil A came out beating play drums and shouting, 'Gooooo Spurs!' The manager said they were doing that because he was a Lakers fan! All I can say is, 'Gooooooooooooooo SPURS!!!!!' ;) Overall, it was another quiet day. Just what I like, I am not looking to party like a rock star... just spend quality time with good friends aka family! My fifth day in San Antonio is now coming to a close! It was a great day! ;) God bless and good night!

Sandralee's Adventures in San Antonio, Day FOUR!

This morning I awoke and went straight to the living room to see what was going on. Woke up just in time to meet Miss Jen S. I had talked to her online since she is my friend Jenn's friend. There I stood with my hair in total disarray, morning breath and still rubbing my eyes to wake up. Jenn said this is Jen and all I saw was a cloud of blonde hair and I was instantly enveloped in the BIGGEST hug a person could receive. I felt like I was her LONG lost friend! That hug spoke VOLUMES to me! 'REAL' people speak from the heart, and that hug was straight from the heart! It was a pleasure to meet my Jenn's friend Jen! Her babies are beyond ADORABLE! Big blue eyes and blonde hair running around speaking in his own baby language! ;) I have spent the fourth day in San Antonio online doing some paperwork and writing a Drama for Mother's Day at the Church. We'll see if I do get to go to the movies and dinner with Don! He is off today! So far, my fourth day in San Antonio is quiet as I STRIVE to keep focused and finish the Drama. Sandralee O-U-T for now! Ta ta! ;) The rest of the afternoon was spent hanging out with Jenn and the kids. They are a handful, but Jenn is organized and makes it look so easy! I spent all afternoon and most of the evening finishing up a Drama for Mother's Day at our Church. Sister Bonnie, who is in charge of the Puppet/Drama Team asked me to submit the work to her. I leave it to her discretion if she wants to use it or make any changes. Just being given a chance to help in this small way is an honor. We had Steaks, hot off the Grill with baked potatoes for dinner! Plus some of Jenn's 'crack head' tea! No offense meant to anyone with the 'crack head' comment! It's just that the tea is SWEET and DELICIOUS!! ;) Over all, it was a quiet day on my fourth day in San Antonio. Don called and rescheduled our dinner and a movie since he had spent all day with the Satellite Company. He switched his service to Dish Network! ;) Hopefully, we will get to spend some time on his next day off, which is Sunday! I did get to see Big Daddy P...... who told me he was running the Valley. Running the Valley, P? As in Mobster! Ha ha! Surrrre! ;) He asked me if I hadn't heard his name mentioned in the Valley.... ummm yeah, P!!! ;) Keep dreaming! I got some great news today! My cousin Carolyn joined the Gym today! So when I get back home, it's ON!!!!! I am hitting my 'Walk at Home' Videos ten times as hard! You guys are not going to leave me behind! ;) Let's do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am getting ready to call it a night. I am proud of my accomplishment today, and that was finishing the Drama and submitting it to Sister Bonnie today. Let's see what day 5 has is store for me tomorrow! God bless and good night! Good night San Antonio, good night ALL the way over there, Rio Grande Valley! ;) God bless!

Sandralee's Adventures in San Antonio, Day THREE!

Sunday morning my sleep was interrupted by a 'crazy' woman yelling for 'Guerra to wake up!' I was told I had 45 minutes to get dressed if I wanted to go to the Doggie Park. Since I am 'OPEN' to any ADVENTURE, I jumped out of bed and got dressed. The day was beautiful and sunny despite the previous heavy rains. The family piled into the Explorer along with Carly the Rottweiler puppy and headed for a day of adventure at the doggie park. Getting to the park, we saw several dogs running around having fun. Jen took Carly's leash off and let her explore at her leisure. There were a couple of snooty Pomeranians yapping and being noisy. They were off in a corner, keeping to themselves. We spent a couple of hours letting Carly play and talking to the other dog owners. There were beautiful dogs there. The sun felt awesome and my skin turned pink and then bright red quickly. I talked about my brother Dan's Rottweiler Harley and how Carly's goal was to grow up and be his mate! ;) All of the dogs were running around and Carly was playing along with everyone. She looked so tiny with all of the other dogs around her. The Alpha Male was aptly named Chief. That is until MOJAVE showed up. He is a 152 pound American Rottweiler and Chief was promptly insulted as Bailey instantly ran to Mojave and started humping him. Bailey's mother was mortified. She just came into San Antonio on Saturday night from Pennsylvania, and her first stop of the day was a doggie park for Bailey. All of the other dog owners assured her that Bailey's behavior was normal. Mojave and Carly were put side by side as I took pictures. The smallest and biggest dogs in the park were ROTTWEILERS! ;) That was a fun adventure and I got a little sun! ;) We came home picking up some Bill Miller's for Lunch. We chilled at home until it was time for Ethan's baseball game. The boys had a great game and Ethan made the first run! The final score was 5 to 3, with Ethan's team winning! I was so proud to see Ethan playing baseball! He needs a little work, but he did excellent! We stopped by to see a 'model home.' We will be praying for God to open the door for Jen and her family to purchase a home when His time is right! The model home was beyond BEAUTIFUL! They really know how to 'STAGE' homes in order to SELL them! The decorations, furniture, the color of the walls and everything else was EXQUISITE! Every little detail was to perfection! The candles, hand soap, towels and etc were all in it's perfect place! We went to dinner at a little Mexican place close to home and the food was superb! I drank an 'Agua Fresca de Pina'! It was yummy! ;) The taco de Carne Asada was good too. The Enchiladas were Jalisco style...... blah!! :( Didn't like them too well. Ethan got a mexican candy with Lucas in it and he was so excited to eat it that he unwrapped it right away. As soon as we got home, it was time for baths. Ethan had slipped into the potty when we heard a loud scream followed by crying. Come to find out, Mr. Ethan had decided to go potty WHILE he was eating his lucas candy. In the process, his candy fell in the toilet and he wanted to get it out and keep it. Daddy said no and Ethan was crying as if his heart would break. He said, 'I will NEVER ever ever NEVER ever see my candy again, FOREVER!!!!!' As much as I LOVE my Ethan, it was PRETTY hilarious! Such DRAMA for a candy! If I had my vehicle, his Duh Duh would have jumped into her Star Jade to get him another candy! ;) Poor baby! ;)It is now the third day of my Adventure in San Antonio. The family is settling down, getting ready for school and work tomorrow. I am already in my PJ's and was watching the Spurs Game for a little bit. Going to just chillax and enjoy a quiet evening. Today was a great day! Running around all of San Antonio is fun! I am happy to be here! ;) My friend Don called me earlier today and he wants to go watch a movie and have dinner tomorrow night. We'll see what the fourth day in San Antonio has for me. I am planning to go to Chacho's with old High School Friends Janie and Danette on Wednesday night! Other than that, just playing it by ear! ;) The third day of my adventure was fun, but I am very sleepy, sunburned and tired! Good night, God bless! ;)

Sandralee's Adventures in San Antonio, Day TWO!

Saturday morning dawned with heavy rains! The grounds were saturated with the continual rain. Sleeping in was great since we expected to wake up early for baseball games. Yet, I was a little saddened since I wanted to see Ethan and Espen play baseball. I knew Espen would be a great player as I have been 'clocked' many times in the face by his fast ball. We finally taught him he had to say 'catch' before he threw the ball yet I would hear, 'Duh Duh, CATCH!' A half second later I would hear a fast whoosh and then the ball would clock me in the face! His huge brown eyes would look at me quizzically as if to ask why I didn't catch it if he yelled for me to catch! Aaay those big brown eyes! I call him my 'Big brown eyed soon to be a heartbreaker boy!' ;)How could one yell at such innocence? Instead, I would yell in pain and go grab some ice to prevent swelling! ;) Being back at Jen's house, I easily fell into my Saturday morning ritual from when I lived with her. I made potato and egg tacos for whomever was awake and settled in to catch up on Facebook and watch some TV. Jen is a GREAT cook but I would usually make potato and egg tacos on Saturday mornings so she could sleep in a bit since she gets up at the crack of dawn during the week. Since it was raining again, we hung out at home all afternoon and I unpacked ALL of the clothes I had brought for a two-week stay! We planned to go to the Enchilada Warehouse for a comedy show Saturday night. Jen, Al and I went to Mr. Roy Lopez Jr's 23rd Annual 29th Birthday Party. There was quite a line-up! There was Cleto Rodriguez from 'The Cleto Rodriguez Show' on Time Warner Cable, Channel 988? in San Antonio. We had the Comedic Duo Regin and Larry from 'Barbacoa and Big Red.' There were a few movie actors also. The line up was funny and I had a great time! I posted some pictures on Facebook. I sat at the self-imposed VIP table since I had called Mr. Lopez and asked him to reserve a table... and he didn't.... he did last time! ;) I got to meet Mr. Lopez's mom and had the pleasure of having her sit with me as we laughed while they were roasting her son! After the great comedy show, we went to eat at IHOP! Overall, my second day in San Antonio was great and I am HAPPY that I was able to attend Roy's birthday party! ;) HAPPY to be in San Antonio! Tomorrow we are going to the Doggie Park and Ethan will be having a baseball game! ;)

Sandralee's Adventures in San Antonio, Day ONE!

The day after Tax Season ended with H&R Block, I boarded the bus from the Rio Grande Valley to San Antonio. I wanted to go visit all of my friends, most of whom I consider family. I decided to stay for two weeks and then come back renewed, refreshed and refocused. Right after I lost my son, Josiah in July I started taking a tax preparation course to keep me occupied. Now that tax season is over, it is time to face reality again and see where my life is going to lead me. I have many goals, dreams and aspirations. Many things weigh on my mind. Should I move to San Antonio or do I stay in the Rio Grande Valley? Ever since I was a little girl, I have always wanted to be a teacher. I remember that my neighbor Mary Lou Mendez and I would fight about who was going to be the teacher and who was going to be the student. Mary Lou fulfilled her dream in becoming a teacher while the road of life lead me to a marriage full of domestic violence. I traveled a road of destruction for many years, full of self-hatred and guilt. I am not going to dwell on that, but wanted to explain why I am here standing on the precipice of a life changing decision. Hence the trip to San Antonio, where I am going to relax, rest, visit great family/friends and try to meet up with some very inspirational people. I decided to take the bus to San Antonio so that I could write about my adventures, meeting different people and not having to drive. I also needed the valve cover gaskets changed on my baby, Star Jade. Left my SUV (along with the new parts)at my parents house in hopes that my dad has time to fix it! ;) At 12:15 pm I boarded the bus and two hours later we were just hitting McAllen! I had traveled by bus YEARS ago and I had forgotten how bumpy, jerky and how many FREQUENT stops the VTC bus made. I quickly got motion sickness and almost asked the bus driver to STOP and let me off. Like a valiant trooper, I closed my eyes for a little bit and was rudely woken up by someone snoring close by! How dare they! I surreptiously looked around to find everyone awake and realized the quiet LADY-LIKE snores were mine! ;) On we traveled down life's highway heading to San Antonio. The heavy rain made me a little uneasy, but I quietly prayed for God's protection as I studied how many escape routes the bus had. Not that MY God could not protect me, but accidents can and do happen. I giggled to myself when I saw the escape hatch on the roof of the bus. Would my big body and booty be able to ESCAPE thru that? I cleverly devised different methods of SQUEEZING all of me thru the escape route, just in case. If I had to hold my breath and wiggle my big booty thru, a few HUGE bruises would be worth it to get out and be safe! I imagined myself raising my arms and DIVING thru the hatch like a swimmer and then laughed when I imagined getting stuck. A bus accident is NOT a laughing matter, but those who have seen me in person, know I am a BIG beautiful woman and that kept me entertained for a few minutes. Satisfied that I knew where ALL of the escape routes were and what lever to push to get them open, I read for a little while. The book by J. Lindsay was about three women who had gone thru traumatic events and were sent to a home in hopes of helping each other. One woman's INTENSE grief was due to a miscarriage. Not wanting to dwell on my FIVE losses, I only read for a little bit. Since the beginning of the trip, there was one little Mexican boy about 5 or 6 years old that was chatting incessantly. I tried playing the older mean lady by glaring at him and putting my finger to my lip with a loud SHHHHHHH! Josue just started laughing at me. I noticed he had a book on Super Heroes and he had his super hero garb on. I made the hand gesture like Spiderman does when he weaves a spider web and Josue started giggling. Advising him my Princess Girl Powers were stronger than his Boy Powers, we engaged in a BOY VS OLD LADY ACTING LIKE A KID Super Hero Power Struggle! He kept blocking my shots with his Power Shield x 100. I told him this is a Sleep Hold x 1000. The Sleep hold x Infinity didn't work since he continued laughing, talking and being silly. I serenely and regally bowed in surrender as Princesses do when they know they are beat and told him good night! He told me good night, turned around and sat down.... STILL talking! SHEESHKABOB! ;) I slept for a little bit and then woke up when the rain stopped enjoying the fields filled with beautiful wild flowers of blue, yellow, red and purple! How majestic is Texas during the Spring! Meanwhile, we were stopping at various places embarking and disembarking passengers. One young couple was taking a short trip and the woman was 6 months pregnant. It was her first child and it was going to be a boy. I didn't regale them with stories of my losses. There is a time and place for everything. The purpose for sharing Josiah's Love is to help others who have lost a baby thru miscarriage or stillbirth. Sharing my son's story is to help others cope with grief and let them know others have gone thru such tragedy too. As the couple disembarked, the young woman looked back and wished me a good day with a huge smile on her glowing face. My stomach didn't clench in anger, grief, envy or hatred. The smile I returned was genuine and fulfilled with the knowledge that God has MY life in his Hands. If I am ever to be a mother in this life, God will open the door. I was genuinely happy for them and even gave them a little free tax advise! They will be enjoying that 'little tax deduction' next year! ;) About thirty minutes outside of San Antonio, we came upon some very HEAVY traffic. We literally CRAWLED thru traffic for about an hour and then had to take a detour. While everyone else turned left to get back on the right road, the bus driver went straight. At that EXACT moment, I knew we were in trouble! We traveled thru long winding farm roads and got lost for about two hours. The passengers were telling the bus driver where to go. I felt my motion sickness coming back full force and I wanted to SCREAM!!!! I was being picked up by one of my best friends, Jen and her family and the kids were hungry! I called her and told her we were in Timbukto. She suggested the bus driver drop me off by the side of the road so they could pick me up and we would go back and get my suitcase full of CHONES (undies) at the station later! We had planned to go to Chacho's with Mari's family and my best male friend Daryl. Thanks to the bus driver, we had to cancel those plans. :( We FINALLY made it to the bus station down town, TWO hours after our scheduled time and Jen's hubby helped me with my luggage. I said goodbye to Josue and I patted him on the head since I didn't dare hug him in case his mom wasn't comfortable with that! He was such a pleasure to duel with! I got into the SUV and saw the handsomest little boys in the world.. that is besides my nephews Jon, Josh & Brandon!! Don't want my other boys to feel left out! ;) Espen & Ethan were so big and my heart filled with joy upon seeing them! Ethan pretended to ignore me until I tickled him and he laughed and held my hand the whole way to the restaurant. We went to Hu Hut Mongolian Grill for dinner. It was my first time and it was FUN!! For those who have never been, you basically get to pick & choose your meal and then have it cooked right in front of you. I selected lots of chicken in one bowl. In a second bowl, I chose Lo Mein Noodles, Cilantro, Cabbage, Spring Onions and selected the HOT HOT sauce. We stood in line while three or four guys stood around the grill and 'put on a show' while cooking our food. It was exciting to watch the various choices everyone made. My heart was full of happiness as I felt I was HOME! I LOVE San Antonio and one day I hope to move back!! My 'niece' Deandra helped me select my food and it was yummy! I had a great time with my Jen, Al, Ethan, Espen & Deandra! We came home and I got to meet Carly the newest addition to the family. She is a 9 week Rottweiler puppy whose goal in life is to be my 'nephew' Harley's girlfriend when she grows up! She immediately started biting on my toes and fingers. She is adorable! I am happy to be back in San Antonio. Tonight we are planning on going to a local comedy show! I will blog about my second day later on tonight! The evening ended with a great new experience at a fun restaurant and a quiet evening at home with the awesome Garza-Castillo family! My heart is content and I thank God for the safe trip on the bus, my adventure which turned out to be a REAL adventure! I am happy to see my 'nephew' Ethan which holds a big piece of my heart! One of the girls from the 'Sisterhood of the Traveling Stretchy Pants' is Jen. I will be staying with her these two weeks. She lets me get some experience in 'mommyhood' with her babies: Deandra, Ethan, Espen and now Carly! My Jen has an awesome heart! We've had our ups and downs, but overall she loves me! It doesn't hurt that her Al is a GREAT cook! I see a BBQ in the near future! Maybe he will make some more home-made cinammon rolls! They were yummy! ;) If we do BBQ, I will share my 'Pico de Gallo' recipe... MAYBE!!!! ;) I am waiting to see my Mari and her family! Of course, we can't leave my friend Daryl out! I met him when I was living in San Antonio and I can tell him anything! See you all tonight, my San Antonio peeps! To my Rio Grande Valley peeps, I love you & miss you! Don't miss me TOO much! 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder!' Hoping to get everything situated soon and keep getting my life back in order with God's help!! God bless, this was my FIRST day in San Antonio...... Sandralee O-U-T! ;) Much love!

STAR LIGHT, STAR BRIGHT!

STAR LIGHT, STAR BRIGHT.. FIRST STAR I SEE TONIGHT! I WISH I MAY, I WISH I MIGHT HAVE THE WISH I WISH TONIGHT! THIS OLD ADAGE HAS BEEN WHISPERED SO MANY TIMES WHILE LOOKING UP AT THE NIGHT SKY. HOPES, DREAMS, AND TEARS MAY HAVE BEEN STREAMING DOWN ONE'S FACE WHILE THE KIND CHILD- LIKE HEART DARED TO DREAM! ONE MIGHT WISH, PLEASE LET ME GET INTO COLLEGE. YET ANOTHER MIGHT ASK TO BECOME A MOMMY. THE WISHES THAT HAVE BEEN WHISPERED FIRST FROM THE HEART AND UTTERED TO THE SKY ARE A FORM OF 'FAITH'. GAZING UPON A CELESTIAL BODY SUCH AS A STAR LEAVES NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT GOD DOES EXIST! AT TIMES LIFE IS OVERWHELMING AND A STROLL DOWN THE STREET TO AN OPEN SPACE WHERE THE NIGHT SKY IS VISIBLE CAN ONLY LEAD TO A GAZE TOWARDS THE HEAVENS. AWESOME WONDER, PEACE AND TRANQUILITY AWAIT ONE BY SIMPLY GAZING AT THE HEAVENS! IF ONE DOES NOT HAVE A DAILY WALK WITH GOD, THE PERFECT CHANCE TO START IS BY WISHING UPON A STAR. ISN'T THAT A LITTLE BIT SUPERSTITIOUS, YOU ASK? I THINK NOT. GOD CREATED THE STARS, DIDN'T HE? AT TIMES, ONE FEELS THE NEED TO 'CATCH' A GLIMPSE OF GOD. STANDING OUTSIDE, LOOKING UP AT THE STARS MAKES ONE FEEL THAT GOD DOES EXIST! IF HE CAN CREATE SUCH BEAUTY FOR US TO GAZE UPON THEN WHY CAN'T WE FOCUS ON AN OBJECT SUCH AS A STAR TO SIT AND TALK WITH HIM! I AM BY NO MEANS INSINUATING TO 'WORSHIP' THE STAR, BUT TO TALK TO GOD WHILE LOOKING UP AT THE STARS. THESE SPECIAL LITTLE MOMENTS WITH GOD CAN HELP YOU CREATE A STRONGER 'WALK' WITH HIM AS YOU DEVELOP DAILY DEVOTIONAL TIME. PRAYING, READING THE BIBLE AND STRIVING TO BE A GOOD CHRISTIAN STARTS WITH A SINGLE STEP! WE GET SO TIED UP WITH DAILY STRUGGLES AND LIFE, THAT SOMETIMES GOD IS NOT PART OF THE EQUATION. SPEAKING FOR MYSELF AS WELL AS OTHERS, LET'S START 'SPEAKING' TO GOD BY DOING THE SIMPLEST LITTLE THINGS SUCH AS LOOKING UP AT A STAR.... AND WE'LL SEE THAT DEVELOPING A 'DAILY WALK' WITH HIM WILL NOT BE CONSIDERED AN OBLIGATION! THIS IS MY 'THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX' METHOD OF ENCOURAGING MYSELF AND OTHERS TO SEEK A STRONGER PERSONAL WALK WITH GOD! GOD BLESS AND I HOPE YOU 'GET ME!' ;) THANKS, SANDRALEE